I made a mistake that I never forgot.

Christian Bale picspam

2009-06-28T01:58:38Z

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It's All Your Fault, part 1

2009-03-03T01:25:14Z

Title: It's All Your Fault (credit to Pink)
Parts: 1/?
Words: 1,110
Chacters: The Joker/OFC, Bruce Wayne,Batman
Summary: Alicia Griffin's parents are taken from her one day in a tragic car accident, and is left with no place to go. She eventually finds someone who gives her everything she needs and more; Bruce Wayne. She is one of the few people who knows of his secret identity as Batman, and despite a criminal known as the Joker running around the town causing death and destruction she believes she's pretty safe from people like this. However, not even he will be able to save her from the Joker once he kidnaps her from everything she knows that is safe. What does the Joker want with Alicia? Will the Joker hurt her, or will he just use her to find out who Batman really is? Will Alicia even survive this expierence, and if she does, will she ever be the same again?
Other Information: The prompt used for the first chapter from 130prompts is #12-insanity.

I never thought I’d end up here. I never thought I’d end up in the mental institute. Why am I here? I’m here because I loved one person so much that I’d do anything and everything for that person. I lost my sanity for this person. I murdered someone who loved me unconditionally in cold blood for this person.

I had to been insane to fall in love with him anyway. How could I have fallen in love with a murderer who killed for fun? He had a different side to him. He showed it to me for some reason. I almost wish he hadn’t. I almost wish he had done what he did to every other person he kidnapped; killed me. I wouldn’t be here. I wouldn’t be totally insane. I wouldn’t be doing the same exact things he did.

I should hate him, but I don’t. I never would hate him. Even as I sat here staring at the walls and laughing hysterically, I didn’t wish him any harm. He was here somewhere; he was here planning his escape. I doubt that I crossed his mind even once, but it still didn’t make me hate him. I’d rot in this hellhole for the rest of my life if that’s what he wanted me to do.

I suppose I should tell people about this person I keep talking about. I suppose I shouldn’t just assume that everyone knew who I was, and that they knew my story. No matter how bad and stupid it may make me look, I’ll let everyone know how I ended up here, and how my life completely changed in one year.

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When I first met Bruce Wayne, I was even more fucked up than I am currently. My parents had just died in a car accident. I never got to say goodbye to them, I never got to tell them I loved them for the last time. I wasn’t exactly something they could be proud of either. I was pretty much broke. I was almost twenty-four years old and I was still living with my parents. I still depended on them for most things. My job I had was just enough to pay them a small rent each month. I felt so fucking bad about it. I should have gone to school; I should’ve made something of my life.

I met Bruce, and I almost instantly fell in love with him. The way he made feel was just so…different. The fact that I was nobody didn’t bother him. He didn’t care that I wasn’t wealthy like him. Bruce didn’t expect anything from me, he just loved me. That was all I really needed. I didn’t need anyone who expected something from me because I’d just end up letting that person down in a major way, so the fact that Bruce only expected me to remain faithful to him helped out a lot.

Something that should have bothered me was the fact that Bruce was rarely around for me. He was a successful business man, and he also did something very few people knew about. Bruce’s other ‘identity’ that people wouldn’t associate with him was Batman. Actually, this made me feel protected. I felt like nothing bad would ever happen to me, I would never be hurt by any of the stupid, maniacal criminals that lived in this town. Turns out, there was one person not even he could protect me from.

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I slowly walked home from working the night shift at Rite Aid. Fun job, right? Hell no. I knew I shouldn’t be walking home alone, especially with it being dark as it possibly could be out. It’s not like I didn’t do this at least once every week. If I hadn’t been raped or murdered yet, it probably wasn’t going to happen anytime soon, unless I did something extremely stupid. If I was stupid and something happened, I would deserve it anyway, but since I was only being slightly reckless, nothing that I didn’t deserve would happen. Wrong again, dumbass.

I never was aware of my surroundings. People always told me I should be more aware of people around me, but it made no difference. How was I supposed to know if someone is behind me? How am I supposed to know that someone’s following me, I don’t have eyes in the back of my head. I never really cared about my inability to sense people behind me, but after tonight, I would. It would have saved me my fucking mind, my fucking heart, and most of all; my life would have never taken the change that it did in that seemingly insignificant night.

“What’s a pretty girl like you doing out here all by yourself?” A voice unlike any that I’d heard before said from behind me.

I thought about ignoring this person, which may or may not have been a good choice, but I rolled my eyes, continued walking and replied, “None of your fucking business.”

“Do you even know who you’re talking to, sweetheart?” The voice snapped from behind me. He grabbed my arm and turned me around to face him. His face was immediately recognizable; his pure white face, all the black around his eyes, bright red lips, and scars that formed a permanent smile on his face. No doubt I had just snapped at a person I really shouldn’t have snapped at; one of the most feared people in this town, the Joker.

well, you may as well keep on screwing yourself over. Can’t really undo what you’ve already done, can you? “I have absolutely no idea who you are,” I replied, smiling at him.

“Well, you’re just going to have to get to know me, sweetheart.”

“I really don’t. You’re insane if you think I’m going anywhere with you or that I ever want to see your face again.”

“You have no idea how insane I really am, sweetheart,” Joker said laughing. “You know the fact that you’re still being a rude little bitch to me instead of fearing me and doing everything I say impresses me. It may have even saved your life, but you’re just what I’ve been looking for. They always come out for the beautiful hostages,” He said, licking his lips, and smiling. I stared at him, knowing there was no way out of this. The fear had finally set in. I had come to the realization that my life as I knew it was over, and that no one was going to stop my life from changing completely.

Writer's Block: Year of the Ox

2009-01-26T21:41:32Z

Happy Chinese New Year! The Year of the Ox starts today. What is your Chinese zodiac animal? Do you think you fit the description of the sign?

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I'm a rooster, and I'm not soiciable, or organized, but I do get better soon, I'm somewhat hard working and I can be super honest, but only if I really want to be. So, I kind of do, but I kind of don't.

Writer's Block: Listening In

2009-01-25T01:12:24Z

Even if you're not actively eavesdropping, you can hear some interesting things. What's the best conversation you've ever overheard?

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'Little dicks.'
I didn't hear it, but my friend did and it made me lol and I don't hear too much fun stuff when I eavesdrop.

Writer's Block: Regime Change

2009-01-20T17:26:30Z

Today marks the inauguration of Barack Obama as the 44th President of the United States. Obama's campaign was built around a message of change. What changes would you most like to see in the next 4 years?

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Definatly a change in the economy, and the housing situation. I think Obama will change these things, I really think he's going to be a great president.

~meme time

2009-01-11T02:55:29Z

Ask me seven questions. Not just any seven questions though. No, to keep it interesting, use the seven questions as per below - just copy and paste the following, replace the blanks with something you want to know/ask (e.g. 3. Donkeys or sandcastles and why?), anything you want, personal, silly, surreal or deep, comment away and I'll answer honestly as I can! Then post this in your own LJ and see what kind of things people want to ask you!

1. What do you think of _____________ ?
2. When did you last ____________?
3. __________ or ___________ and why?
4. What did you ______________?
5. What's your favorite ______________?
6. How would you ______________?
7. Who would you most like to ________ ?

stolen from foldedmemos

tutorial 64

2009-01-10T03:19:36Z

-.psd included.

1. curves layer.
RGB; 98, 127
this is pretty much a screen layer. if your image is too light in the end, delete this layer or play around with the opacity.

2. curves layer.

RBG; 99, 125
red; 138, 134
blue; 102, 135
set this layer to soft light 100%

3. color balance layer.

midtones; +28, -14, -28
shadows; -12, 0, +12

4. channel mixer layer.

red; +94, -15, +10
blue; -22, +32, +100 constant;+6

5. selective color layer.

reds; -84, +15, +44, 0
neutrals; +20, 0, -16, 0

.psd.

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle

2009-01-09T02:30:59Z



		I will marry brandon flowers.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in las vegas in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 5 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a black lambourgini.
		I will spend my days as a porn star, and live happily ever after.

tutorial #63

2009-01-07T02:09:34Z

to

-no selective coloring. :D

other example:

1. curves layer. (I would play with the opacity of this one, it's like a screen layer. I just think curves do more for lightening then just a screen layer. (:)

RGB; 60, 78

2. color balance layer.

midtones; +13, -8, -13
shadows; -28, +4, +22
highlights; +16, 0, -7

3. channel mixer layer.

r; +98, -6, +6
b; -22, +38, +104

4. brightness/contrast layer.

brightness; -5
contrast; +1

5. color fill/raster layer.

#DFFDF8, (color) burn 50%

you're all done. (:

here's two more examples:

i promise you anything but another shot at life.

2009-01-06T23:39:20Z

-all of these use selecitve coloring, sorry. :(
-click the icons to go to my DA and download them.

25 things about me.

2009-01-06T22:01:00Z

1I was tagged by depp_paradisfan

1. I'm almost always tired.
2. I fall alseep in school very easily.
3. I'm in one honors class. World History.
4. My best friend is someone I talk to online.
5. I'm very shy in real life.
6. I have a dirty mind.
7. I'm almost always depressed, usually over stupid shit. I think I hide it pretty well.
8. My cell phone is a pink razr that I got for Christmas.
9. I still have shitty dial up.
10. I'm going to be 16 on Feburary 11.
11. I use photoshop 7.0 for my icons.
12. I own all the seasons of The Andy Milonakis Show and Family Guy on DVD.
13. I'm bored to death.
14. I hate math with a passion.
15. I almost got a zero on a Biology project that I said was stupid today lololol.
16. I meesed up terribly on the project anyway, so the zero would have been better.
17. I have 4,313 songs in my iTunes.
18. There are 512 artists and 603 albums in my iTunes.
19. I have a black 80GB iPod classic.
20. I watch HSN when I'm bored.
21. I love to sleep. <3
22. I need to make some real life friends.
23. I'm pretty sure I'm boring you.
24. I have a sarcastic sense of humor.
25. I'm in spanish 1.

I tag:

rocknrollparade mcghengland_xx sh3ll3y and offkeymelodies

tutorial #62

2009-01-03T01:32:10Z

1. curves layer.
RGB; 104, 140

2. channel mixer layer.

r; +98, -12, +12
b; -18, +32, +92

3. selective color layer. (don't do this if you want the second result.)

reds; -67, +11, +55, +100
yellows; -34, +12, +43, 0
nuetrals; +8, -2, -7, 0

4. hue/saturation layer. (don't do this for the last result.)

master; 0, +6, 0
reds; 0, +34, 0
yellows; 0, +29, 0

that layer looks pretty close to last result that used sc, right? i thought it came out pretty well. (:

5. color balance layer.

midtones; -30, 0, +33
shadows; +20, 0, -25

6. duplicate base, and bring it to the top of your layers. set this to luminosity (i forget what this is like in PSP. i think luminance? if someone with PSP wants to tell me, i'll fix it on here.) 57% (you can adjust that percent if you want.)

7. color fill/raster layer.

#2C0000, exculsion 52%

and you're all done. (:

LOL. PLZ IGNORE THE FAILURE THAT IS THE BANNER. ;_;

yesterday was hell but today i'm fine without you.

2009-01-01T21:47:28Z

List the first ten series/movies/books that come to mind.
Then, have your friends comment with which character they think you are most like from each of the series'/movie's/book's mentioned.
Remember that this is who I'm most like, not favorites.
(and if you can, please explain why you chose the people/characters)

took this fromL: mcghengland_xx

1) Family Guy
2) The Simpsons
3) The Andy Milonakis Show
4) Mr. Bean
5) Batman Begins
6) The Dark Knight
7) Spongebob Squarepants
8) Dora the Explorer
9) Three's Company
10) The Fresh Prince of Bel Air

icon meme. (:

2009-01-01T21:29:39Z

<i>1. Reply to this post, & I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including this info) & talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.</i>

depp_paradisfanpicked these 5 icons:

1. I absoultly love that picture. It's probably my favorite picture of Heath right now. I also liked the way the cropping and coloring came out.
2. Nurse Joker is just plain awesome. I loved that part of the movie. His wig was hilarious.
3. It's such a cute picture. I had to make an icon of it. I love his smile.
4. I think that's one of the best icons I've ever made. I love the coloring, and I love that picture also.
5. I made this orginally for an icon tutorial, so I wasn't going to use it, but I had to. I was proud of the cropping, usually I hate the way my cropping turns out. Also, I love that picture too. (I love a lot of pictures, right? Probably why I can never find any on my computer easily. xD)

happy new year

2009-01-01T04:47:30Z

it's a little early, but i'm tired so i'll most likely go to bed after midnight. (:

happy 2009!

just look at those neat-o colors i used.

61 icons

2009-01-01T02:37:54Z

(40)- Heath Ledger
(15)- Ashlee Simpson
(06)- The Dark Knight (mostly the Joker.)
- If you want to, you can request anything. Or, if you want me to, I can pick 2 or 3 of your interests listed in your user info, and I'll make icons of that person/subject. Also, if you like the coloring on an icon, ask me and I'll help however I can. (:
-comments are lovely, so please leave them.
-please credit if using any icons.
-blank icons aren't bases.

preview:

if you made a request on a previous post, I'll make it in my next icon post. It's going to pretty much be a request post, depending on what people want to see. But, I plan on making a lot more icons of caps from the dark knight. I was just too lazy to take the caps atm. xD

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9	10	11	12

13	14	15	16

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Writer's Block: Internal Assets

2008-12-31T01:52:18Z

As the holiday season draws to a close, you might be feeling a little strapped for cash. Would you ever consider selling one of your organs (bodily organs, that is) if you really needed the money?

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i would sell my heart in an instant.

really, even if i was about to lose everything i owned, i wouldn't sell my body organs. it's messed up. unless i'm dead, no one else is getting my organs.

Writer's Block: Easy Like Sunday Morning

2008-12-28T22:16:58Z

Ah, Sunday, the day of rest. What's your favorite way to spend a Sunday morning?

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watching the shitty soap opera that i missed during the week.

Writer's Block: Top 10

2008-12-23T21:57:18Z

It's the time of year for "10 Best" lists. What's on your personal 10 Best—events, movies, music, anything—list for 2008?

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my top ten albums would have to be:
1. Weezer (red album) -Weezer
2. The Fame- Lady Gaga
3. A Guide To Love, Loss and Desperation- The Wombats
4. Want- 30h!3
5. Fearless- Taylor Swift
6. Cupcakes Taste Like Violence- Jeffree Star
7. 808's & Heartbreak- Kanye West
8. Bittersweet World- Ashlee Simpson
9. Viva la Vida- Coldplay
10. If- Mindless Self Indulgence.

i cant say this goes from my favorite to least favorite, really. xD it's just the ones i enjoyed the most. (:

tutorial 61

2008-12-22T01:53:28Z

to

1. curves layer.
RBG; 126, 161

2. color fill layer.
#D0F7FF, color burn 100%

3. channel mixer layer.
r; +128, -35, +10
b; -38, +62, +90

4. color fill layer.
#D4D101, soft light 90%

5. selective color layer.
r; -100, +100, +100, +25
w; +25, -11, +20, +29
n; +100, +43, -32, -6

6. selective color layer.
n; +36, -4, -22, 0

example;

Writer's Block: Doh!

2008-12-17T21:27:16Z

It's the twentieth anniversary of the first Simpsons episode today. Who is your favorite Simpsons character—Ralph? Sideshow Bob? Ned Flanders? An actual Simpson?

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MOE. FOR THE FUCKING WIN. I LOVE HIM OMG.
or mr. burns.
i love him too.

33 icons & 2 banners

2008-12-16T23:28:19Z

(11)- The Joker (1 banner)
(10)- Brokeback Mountain
(07)- Heath Ledger
(05)- Cillian Murphy (1 banner)

-credit.
-comments make my day.

preview:

sorry this post is so small and that i only got like half the requests done. i'm going to make another post later in the week, or next week since i have off school. if i make anymore icon posts this week, it'd be friday or saturday since i have a stupid bio & history test on the same day that i need to study for. this was taking me like forever, so i figured i'd just post what i had as of right now and make the rest later when i got bored. xD

-still taking icons and tutorial requests. (:
-i used some bases from dont_be_so_base in this post.


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5	6

7	8

9	10

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x_falsetto @ 2008-12-15T21:23:00

2008-12-16T02:36:57Z

a people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.
b tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged. you.

I TAG mcghengland_xx billies_willie rocknrollparade owldistrict electroholic offkeymelodies jellydreamz and
depp_paradisfan

uno. What are your nicknames?
jen, SHARON (long story xD)

dos. What's your favorite holiday?
christmas, ftw.

tres. What's new in your life right now?
not much, really. i really don't have that much of a life, lmao. i need to get one soon.

cuatro. Where was the last Starbucks that you visited?
i've never been to a starbucks

cinco. Are you introverted or extroverted?
i think i would be introverted. if that means like shy. idk.

seis. What books are you currently reading?
i don't read books, but i do read fan fictions on the computer. xD

siete. What celebrity do you have a crush on?
christian bale. (:

ocho. What is your canon TV OTP?
what? i r dumb.

nueve. What's the best thing going for you right now?
only 4 more days of school until christmas break, yay.

diez. Favorite video game. Go!
i've only played once, and its the only game i've really played (wtf, ikr?) but that rabbit game with those weird looking bunnies. xD

once. Number one thing you blog about?
i mostly post icons on here. xD i can rarely think of anything to blog about

doce. What do you love to wear?
my pajamas.

trece. What's your favorite thing to cook?
i don't cook. xD

catorce. Do you like to clean?
hell no.

quince. Ever made a wall collage from random magazine clippings?
yess.

dieciséis. What was the first band you ever saw live?
i have never been to a concert. my mom says i have wait until i'm 18. failure.

diecisiete. What's your favorite animal?
lions

dieciocho. What would you do if you ever saw $100 lying on the ground?
spend it. (;

diecinueve. First band you ever got crazy obsessed with?
the killers. i still love them to death. brandon flowers is amazing. i want his last name too. xD

veinte. Tell me something good.
10 days until christmas (: (:

Writer's Block: Coast Range

2008-12-11T22:20:55Z

If you had to choose, would you rather live in the mountains or by the ocean?

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ocean.

tutorial #60

2008-12-11T01:35:36Z

-no selective coloring.

1. new curves layer.
RGB : 117, 150

2. new color balance layer.
midtones : -19, -10, -4
shadows : +13, 0, +21

3. new channel mixer layer.
red : +158, -45, -10, -2
green : -16, +116, -2, 0
blue : -46, +56, +100, -4

4. another channel mixer layer.

red : +98, -14, +12, +4
blue : -16, +24, +92,0

5. new hue/saturation layer.

master : +1, +10, -1
reds : +1, +13, 0
blues : +2, -13, -6

6. (this won't work for all images)
duplicate base, drag it to the top and set to soft light @ 59% opacity.

all done. (;